Hey there everyone that actually reads this blog of mine! I am happy to say that my blog has been shared on Facebook by some of my friends. For that, I thank you :)
The real deal....
Do you ever feel like your mind just won't quit??? It seems like the closer we get to the treatment date, the more my mind races about any and everything. I think about money (we all do), how lonely I feel now, will I have any time to myself when we have a baby, will Jay help me enough, will we be good parents, will I be a different person after baby....and so on and on and on. I have to stop and mentally scream at myself: SHUT UP! And BREATHE....
So I looked at the calendar today and realized we are one full cycle away from starting our IUI. How do I feel about that? Anxious, excited, & scared are the 3 words that perfectly describe my emotions right now. I think that's pretty normal, don't you?
In closing....
If any of you have questions or advice for me...shoot! I appreciate any and all feedback from my friends out there. :)
~Chow for now
Laine
Friday, July 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
A great day!
Just a quick post: I went to an indoor waterpark called CoCo Key today! It was so much fun! My cousins were vacationing and invited me to partake for the day. There were 3 kids and 1 baby boy to play with, we had a blast! As the baby napped soundly on my chest, I thought to myself "In about a year from now I could be holding my own baby". I kissed his sweet chubby cheek, stroked his fine golden locks and smiled to myself :)
It's nice to dream about the future....
Cheers,
Laine
It's nice to dream about the future....
Cheers,
Laine
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Welcome to my Blog!
Hello there! I am Laine, 31 years old and have a lust for life! I also have a lust for giving life....some day. So did that sound cheesy or what?! Haha. This is my very first Blog post and I am unsure how to go about it.
My goal for this Blog: To create an outlet for my upcoming experience(s) with fertility treatment(s). This will be an online diary of sorts for anyone out there with the same issues I have or for those that simply want to be more educated on the subject. INFERTILITY. Scary word isn't it? When I speak up about my issues people have the normal "oh you poor thing" look on their face. But the reality of it is, I am not alone! From all the research I have done the past several years it seems that 10% of couples out there have some sort of problem with getting pregnant. We have decided to try IUI treatments this fall and really hope it works the first time! I feel confident that we can do this, that we WILL be parents someday soon.
A little history.....
My husband (we will call him 'Jay' to observe his privacy) and I met at the young age of 18. We got married in 2001, 2 years later and decided a year after that to try getting pregnant. Fast forward to 2006....I was having lots of pain on one side of my pelvic area with my menses not to mention the fact I was popping Advil like it was candy. Finally I was able to convince my doctor to send me off to an RE for a check up. This 'RE', as he liked to call himself, was very unemotional; dry if you will. After he did my Lap surgery he claimed that he cleaned me up as best as he could but my only options were: 1) BC pills 2) Hysterectomy (I was only 26!) OR 3)IVF ($10,000 per treatment). So needless to say I was devastated and cried in his office while he stared at me blankly.
Fast forward another year later 2007...I still had the pain in fact it was worse and I was so depressed all the time. I decided to make an appointment and have my awesome mother go along with me for support. We asked him a slew of Q's with little answers except the major one I didn't want to hear "Well you do have Stage 4 endometriosis, so without IVF you most likely won't get pregnant". We were so upset and not to mention a little angry that he failed to tell me my stage of Endo right after my first surgery.
Fast forward to 2010...I was referred to a different doctor that was considered "the best in his field" by not only a friend that ended up getting pregnant but by another person I trust. When I met Dr. Awesome (that's what we will call him) I just knew he could help me. At that point I was tired of the pain and disappointment month after month. He scheduled me for another Lap and let me tell you...I felt amazing shortly after. And still to this day :) I had a HSG (tubes clear, yay!), LAP, and D&C. He cleaned me all up and even let me see the video! I was then downgraded to Stage 3 endo...I was pretty happy.
Fast forward to April 2011...I had my annual coming up and was lucky enough to be 'grandfathered in' as Dr. Awesome's patient. He did an internal ultrasound and boy did he have a shocked but happy look on his face. He said everything looked like it healed nicely from the previous year's surgery and no new growths on my ovaries were found. He also scolded me for not having fertility treatments right after my surgery as that is the highest success. What I couldn't tell him was that we simply couldn't afford the cost. I asked the nurse to write out how much an IUI (we were actually approved for the beginning stage of treatment! good news) would cost and what all is involved. I found out that each month's treatment would cost approx $500-$800. Not bad, but also very hard for us to come up with.
Fast forward to today....My hubby and I have managed to save up just enough money to try one treatment! I know that's not very realistic; thinking that it will work the very first time; but I have a hunch! I know my body and Jay has had his fertility work up. We. Are. Ready.
Will you follow this journey with us?
Cheers,
Laine
My goal for this Blog: To create an outlet for my upcoming experience(s) with fertility treatment(s). This will be an online diary of sorts for anyone out there with the same issues I have or for those that simply want to be more educated on the subject. INFERTILITY. Scary word isn't it? When I speak up about my issues people have the normal "oh you poor thing" look on their face. But the reality of it is, I am not alone! From all the research I have done the past several years it seems that 10% of couples out there have some sort of problem with getting pregnant. We have decided to try IUI treatments this fall and really hope it works the first time! I feel confident that we can do this, that we WILL be parents someday soon.
A little history.....
My husband (we will call him 'Jay' to observe his privacy) and I met at the young age of 18. We got married in 2001, 2 years later and decided a year after that to try getting pregnant. Fast forward to 2006....I was having lots of pain on one side of my pelvic area with my menses not to mention the fact I was popping Advil like it was candy. Finally I was able to convince my doctor to send me off to an RE for a check up. This 'RE', as he liked to call himself, was very unemotional; dry if you will. After he did my Lap surgery he claimed that he cleaned me up as best as he could but my only options were: 1) BC pills 2) Hysterectomy (I was only 26!) OR 3)IVF ($10,000 per treatment). So needless to say I was devastated and cried in his office while he stared at me blankly.
Fast forward another year later 2007...I still had the pain in fact it was worse and I was so depressed all the time. I decided to make an appointment and have my awesome mother go along with me for support. We asked him a slew of Q's with little answers except the major one I didn't want to hear "Well you do have Stage 4 endometriosis, so without IVF you most likely won't get pregnant". We were so upset and not to mention a little angry that he failed to tell me my stage of Endo right after my first surgery.
Fast forward to 2010...I was referred to a different doctor that was considered "the best in his field" by not only a friend that ended up getting pregnant but by another person I trust. When I met Dr. Awesome (that's what we will call him) I just knew he could help me. At that point I was tired of the pain and disappointment month after month. He scheduled me for another Lap and let me tell you...I felt amazing shortly after. And still to this day :) I had a HSG (tubes clear, yay!), LAP, and D&C. He cleaned me all up and even let me see the video! I was then downgraded to Stage 3 endo...I was pretty happy.
Fast forward to April 2011...I had my annual coming up and was lucky enough to be 'grandfathered in' as Dr. Awesome's patient. He did an internal ultrasound and boy did he have a shocked but happy look on his face. He said everything looked like it healed nicely from the previous year's surgery and no new growths on my ovaries were found. He also scolded me for not having fertility treatments right after my surgery as that is the highest success. What I couldn't tell him was that we simply couldn't afford the cost. I asked the nurse to write out how much an IUI (we were actually approved for the beginning stage of treatment! good news) would cost and what all is involved. I found out that each month's treatment would cost approx $500-$800. Not bad, but also very hard for us to come up with.
Fast forward to today....My hubby and I have managed to save up just enough money to try one treatment! I know that's not very realistic; thinking that it will work the very first time; but I have a hunch! I know my body and Jay has had his fertility work up. We. Are. Ready.
Will you follow this journey with us?
Cheers,
Laine
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