Hello all, it's been a couple weeks since my last post. My best friend got married yesterday, all the while I was politely asking mother nature (my period) to hold off for just one more day! I made sure to take ibuprofen like clock work so that the terrible cramps would remain at bay during my bestie's special day. As soon as I got home though, a little gush of pink appeared! Talk about a close call....
I woke up this morning remembering that on Monday I will have to make the call into the Dr's office for my prescription of Clomid. I can't quite remember what exact day I am supposed to start taking it, but soon enough! I am quite nervous about how it will make me feel since I am so sensitive to medications. I typically have the majority of side effects that are listed on the little print off. Fun times. Also, my boss is aware of me doing this but I am still hoping I don't miss too much work for appointments and such. I will most definitely take the day off that I have the IUI. I realize it's not necessary, but since it's my first time I will just go home and lay to to relax for a few hours, just in case!
I feel like I am getting ahead of myself right now, so I will check back in after I start the drug. :)
Till next time.
~Laine
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Things are lookin' up!
Well in the last week since my previous post things have gotten better! I took the advice of my mom and started writing in a diary almost everyday. Also, since I had my little meltdown, I have the urge to write to again! Some of you may not know that I'm a writer, by hobby of course. I have several fictional stories started and feel inspired to add to one of them. I am hoping to finish at least one by the end of this year.
I have also been meditating when I feel stressed. This is something everyone should do in my opinion. It's easy to do! I simply go to my bedroom, lay down, and empty my mind while focusing on steady breathing. An overwhelming sense of calm passes through me and I feel refreshed immediately!
In about 2 weeks we will be starting the IUI process...where has the time gone? As soon as my best friend gets married I will be starting Clomid or Clomiphene (generic). I read that it can cause some side effects such as: mood swings, hot flashes, breast tenderness...etc. So since I will be working, that should be fun! LOL. I will have to go into the doctor's office for ultrasound monitoring a couple times throughout the process to keep an eye on my ovaries. I am crossing my fingers that everything goes ok and that they don't get over stimulated! At some point after I am done with the drug I will need a HCG shot, but I don't exactly know all the detail yet.
I hope to write again in another week but if I don't... SORRY! Life is going to be pretty busy with pre-wedding stuff etc. If anyone has any questions or comments please shoot!
As always,
~Laine
I have also been meditating when I feel stressed. This is something everyone should do in my opinion. It's easy to do! I simply go to my bedroom, lay down, and empty my mind while focusing on steady breathing. An overwhelming sense of calm passes through me and I feel refreshed immediately!
In about 2 weeks we will be starting the IUI process...where has the time gone? As soon as my best friend gets married I will be starting Clomid or Clomiphene (generic). I read that it can cause some side effects such as: mood swings, hot flashes, breast tenderness...etc. So since I will be working, that should be fun! LOL. I will have to go into the doctor's office for ultrasound monitoring a couple times throughout the process to keep an eye on my ovaries. I am crossing my fingers that everything goes ok and that they don't get over stimulated! At some point after I am done with the drug I will need a HCG shot, but I don't exactly know all the detail yet.
I hope to write again in another week but if I don't... SORRY! Life is going to be pretty busy with pre-wedding stuff etc. If anyone has any questions or comments please shoot!
As always,
~Laine
Friday, August 5, 2011
Meltdown...
I am writing this while it's fresh in my mind, so bear with me...
Around mid-afternoon I noticed that I was experiencing chest pain and a headache. I also noticed that my heart was racing as if I had been running a marathon. I simply ignored the pains (thinking it was the energy drink I had at 8 am) and enjoyed the evening with my family as much as possible. Then while walking through the mall I noticed I was feeling faint and the pain was getting worse, so I sat down for a bit to rest. This really isn't like me at all. I knew exactly what the problem was: ANXIETY.
The meltdown began shortly after I got home. Stress at work, anxiety about the upcoming treatments, day-to-day life, my emotions, and family stuff just sent me over the edge. I don't really talk about all that's bothering me because who wants to be a downer? We all have problems, right? But I always have to be the best, the strongest, most in control person all the time. The girl you can count on. Lately I feel like things have been out of my control and I simply can't do all the things I'd like to. Maybe I need a clone or two of me? ~ I wish!
So I started crying really hard and freaking out, cracking under the pressure! My wonderful husband didn't know what to do so he got my mom on the phone to calm me down. About an hour and a half later I am on here writing it all down. She (and Jay) told me that I need some sort of outlet for all this since I can't constantly talk to someone about all my feelings. My mom suggested a diary, so I will be purchasing one tomorrow! She also suggested that I meditate and do more for myself. Sounds good to me. It's so hard to be selfish for me and I am hoping that will make me an even better mom one day.
Call me crazy or simply human. Why did I share this on here? Because I want to share all aspects of what I am going through. The good, bad, and the ugly.
The count down begins to our IUI and I will begin taking Clomid at the end of this month! The time has really flown, and I am getting nervous. My goal for the next few weeks: RELAX, MEDITATE, WRITE, and BREATHE!
A BIG SHOUT OUT goes to my mom! I seriously don't know what I would do without her words of encouragement, her strength, witty sense of humor, and most of all LOVE. I love you mom, more than you can ever imagine. Thank you for everything!
Hoping for a much more positive blog post next time,
~Laine
Around mid-afternoon I noticed that I was experiencing chest pain and a headache. I also noticed that my heart was racing as if I had been running a marathon. I simply ignored the pains (thinking it was the energy drink I had at 8 am) and enjoyed the evening with my family as much as possible. Then while walking through the mall I noticed I was feeling faint and the pain was getting worse, so I sat down for a bit to rest. This really isn't like me at all. I knew exactly what the problem was: ANXIETY.
The meltdown began shortly after I got home. Stress at work, anxiety about the upcoming treatments, day-to-day life, my emotions, and family stuff just sent me over the edge. I don't really talk about all that's bothering me because who wants to be a downer? We all have problems, right? But I always have to be the best, the strongest, most in control person all the time. The girl you can count on. Lately I feel like things have been out of my control and I simply can't do all the things I'd like to. Maybe I need a clone or two of me? ~ I wish!
So I started crying really hard and freaking out, cracking under the pressure! My wonderful husband didn't know what to do so he got my mom on the phone to calm me down. About an hour and a half later I am on here writing it all down. She (and Jay) told me that I need some sort of outlet for all this since I can't constantly talk to someone about all my feelings. My mom suggested a diary, so I will be purchasing one tomorrow! She also suggested that I meditate and do more for myself. Sounds good to me. It's so hard to be selfish for me and I am hoping that will make me an even better mom one day.
Call me crazy or simply human. Why did I share this on here? Because I want to share all aspects of what I am going through. The good, bad, and the ugly.
The count down begins to our IUI and I will begin taking Clomid at the end of this month! The time has really flown, and I am getting nervous. My goal for the next few weeks: RELAX, MEDITATE, WRITE, and BREATHE!
A BIG SHOUT OUT goes to my mom! I seriously don't know what I would do without her words of encouragement, her strength, witty sense of humor, and most of all LOVE. I love you mom, more than you can ever imagine. Thank you for everything!
Hoping for a much more positive blog post next time,
~Laine
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